blardy hell, waste my time going home again...

today is my mum's bdae, and supposed to have some dinner de.. went home to celebrate with her, reach home onli to find tat she aredi bought some food... ask her go out she say she dun wan, throw tantrum say call us we never pick up (she call me at 4.40pm, i return 3 calls from 5pm-5.15pm, all never pick up, by 520, i aredi reach home) then say she too tired from carrying all the stuff she bought home, den dun wanna to even go downstairs to eat... no matter how i persuade her oso no use....

anyway, i could tell something wrong la, and i heard she sort of had a tiff with my bro.. again... -_-... and i believe she diliberately do this to make my bro feel guilty or something.. i am slowly slowly getting to the point of not being able to understand wat she is thinking, in fact.. even if i do, i realise i cant do anything anymore ... the both of them are like... stubborn mules.. and in fact i dun blame my bro for wat/how he feel... it is realli veri hard to be living like he is now.. which is something i will be going thru soon (perhaps not as bad, but similar definitely).

well, imagine a typical scenario, u are a poor scholar in the song or watever dynasty... u borrowed 2000bucks to go to capital to take exams, u managed to get a small ranking officer which yield u a monthly pay of 200bucks.. and ur mum, instead of asking u to finish paying ur debts first, started demanding maintenance from u, abt 20% lidat.. and sadly, u are a reglious guy who feel tat a portion (10%) of ur income shd goes to helping the needy.. minus away all the expenditure, u roughly onli have 30-50bucks per month which is given to the money lender. The best or worst part is, the lender is a loanshark who charges 12% interest, meaning u need to pay abt 240bucks per year as interest.. which means if the poor chap pays 40bucks per month (480 per year), he will take meebe 8-9years to repay the debt.. how wonderful...

damn it, dun feel like writing le.. stopping here le..