我心意已决。。。 拖泥带水只会带来更多的痛苦给心爱的人和自己而已。。

yes yes, i noe i am long winded.. and i take super damn long to come up with a decision so simple tat everyone will laff their heads off.... duh...

anyway, this time, it is no longer anyone's point of view or advice, this has become MY point of view, my decision for this situation... i will not 优柔寡断，犹豫不决，anymore.. certain things cannot and shd not wait.. i always thought waiting for things to follow it's natural course is the best case.. but after so much thinking.. i think, this time it shd not be the case... the longer i remain indecisive, the more damage is created.. and i think the more suffering i am creating for the girl... so rather than decide whether i shd go on anot and wait for things to happen, i decided tat i shd go on and do my best to create the best possible scenario to make her as happy as possible... and also to show watever support i could ... as well as to show wat i am actually capable of doing...

perhaps sometimes in order to make someone happy, one needs to be a bad person for the greater good to be achieved... so i intend to be the bad person.. and i sincerely hope tat my judgement is correct... and tat the final good tat is achieved will be well worth the sacrifices...

despite saying all this, it onli shows tat i am veri firm in my resolve, but in terms of carrying out.. it is another issue... no choice.. everything have to depend on my 感觉。。。 hope my intuition is as good as b4...