hmmm, juz a piece of my mind..

well, for all those who genuinely worried for me.. sorrie to make all of u worrie.. i guess i am being too emotional... and perhaps i let it out without restrain, but it doesnt matter.. i have sort of come to terms with it...

since there is nothing i can do.. i aint going to do anything destructive, juz be a fren and see how things goes... of cuz my heart still aches when i think of it.. but then, certain things tat needs to be done has to be done right... and sorrie for my pathetic and non excusable performance over the past week.. missing lessons, not studying for quiz, ill prepared for project, presentations, not talking much, rather withdrawn, etc.. yeah.. i noe wat's happening, juz tat i can't be bothered...

now i think i am slightly in better ctrl.. i hope... well.. this sem is not going to be ez, and my life have never been smooth sailing.. perhaps that which doesn't kills (or breaks) me will only serves to make me stronger... Hope i do become stronger...

darn.. now listening to one of the 9.33 ying yue ri ji.. suddenly hear something like.. "wanna like someone but cant...".. suddenly gimme a veri emotional jolt into my heart.. heh.. guess i aint really that well yet.. but i shall try my best not to disrupt anything arnd me..