心烦也好，不烦也好，无论如何， things still needs to be done...

hmm, 心情始终不怎么好，但是，心烦，心痛， etc, 都好， 如果我不认真做我因做的是。。。 我会越来越糟。。 问题也会越来越多。。。

anyway, i shd try to separate and segregate my feelings and my work.. i mean, nowadays, everyday i wake up with a rather heavy heart.. tat's y i seldom get to rest very well... but at least everyday i wake up i noe i am doing the right thing... so i dun need to worry abt regretting later abt not doing things when i shd be doing... but still... i realli hope things will work out soon (and in a way i hope it is to be) as the longer this goes, the more damage it does to everyone...

recently havent have much mood to do my work, lucky for me, this sem work mostly involve project work.. and not those tat need to study alot.. i mean, yes, i am laggin in terms of lectures but it isnt as bad as last time... but i feel a bit bad recently as my input for project has decreased significantly..

well, i dun mean i am not doing anything, in fact my performance i believe is still acceptable, juz nothing to write home about.

mmm moral of the story? sometimes in order to do the things u consider is right, u have to sacrifice alot.. even at the cost of losing everything in the end... well, i have considered this, and have willingly jump into the "pit"... i dun wan to regret again.. i dun wan to see someone i love suffer and i dun wan to be passive like last time anymore...

read somewhere... think is with regards to the Hitler movie... "Evil truimphs becuz the Good does nothing about it...“（or something similar)

Apathy leads to a lot of problems... i always loathe ppl who are apathetic, but i realise, i am the same sometimes... and in those veri impt issues.. so yup.. i am not gg to be liddat anymore... sometimes not doing anything is as bad as (if not worse) than doing the wrong things...