hmm... a day of chess

today is a whole day of chess... chinese chess... morning (as in 12mn - 6++ am) i was playing online chess... after that 8++ i went for chess training.. listen to tay siang hock talk talk for 5hr liddat.. den play chess again.. play until 5++ lolz.. den reach hall concuss.. (ie.. sleep) 10++ wake up.. den play chess and some mind games until now... 3++... hmmm.. i tink i better cut down.. i am feeling veri tired from this...

anyway.. talking abt chess.. i think in order to improve further i need to start to K chess books.. sigh... sem period K modules... holiday K chess modules.. -_-!! simi sai... but guess no choice.. to become stronger.. i must realli put in more effort ba.. but then.. hall stuff is making me quite sick... chinese chess training i am still quite fine cuz i can teach a bit... but international chess i cant.. and the rec ppl are like kinda pushing me to do it -_- simi sai.. 1 week 2 training per chess.. tat is 4 hall training per week.. wat kinda dapian is that -_-!!... furthermore the number of ppl turning up for training is pathetic... why bother?? sigh... somethings cant be forced de... yin yin train oso no pt.. cuz the standard too low le.. how to compare x_x
sigh....

p.s. my mindless rambling.. dun care too much.. haha

hmmm another day has passed

nothing much happened.. pei KS watch harry potter.. din realli want to watch, but since he alone watching den i got GV movie pass.. why not.. haha
i machiam those mountain tortoise, buy lots of food inside munch munch... got fried sotong from old chang kee... cheesy dogs, nacho, drinks, etc etc.. the s2pid show start late.. 2130 show hor, end up 2145 den start and by then my food 90% gone.. lolz.. but the show wasnt bad la.. pretty interesting...
however it ended at 0010 = no bus... lucky ks take cab.. den i take free cab.. i realise the cab fare is abt 30% at 0030 or so... cuz i remember the fare is 2.40 plus 85ct.. haha anyway.. like i say
nothing much happened... so nothing much to write.. maybe got time n mood i add in some trivial and review on stuff i feel interested with.. till den.. i go ZzZZZ le.. tmr 0930 training =(
i am so going to die.. haha

oh yeah...

my predict for result initially will definitely be wrong..
i think my optimum results will be something like

MP2001 - C (hopefully B)
MP2006 - A (hope nothing goes wrong)
MP2008 - B (hopefully can A, but unlikely)
MP2010 - B (hopefully nothing goes wrong either)
MP2012 - B
MP2071 - B
HS103 - A (hopefully, but might get B as well)
HP803 - B ( i think, but might have a chance to get A, who knows...)

well... hope i can get the above results or better ba.. haha
hope.. hope.. hope...

End of Exams, but i dun feel any joy at all...

hmm... been a long time since i last wrote... well.. basic update

1) exam finish
2) no much free time cuz too much training
3) just broke up with girl friend

well, exam just finished on friday, yet i dun feel any joy at all... cuz it is also the day i broke up with Jennifer... I initiated the break up... for many reasons that i do not want to publish.. some are make known, some are not... well... to me perhaps.. it seemed the best outcome i shd have gotten... i feel sad that i have to break her heart.. sadder by the loss... but maybe it is not love.. just a longing for something lost... that i do not know.. but i do not want to think about it either...
i try to forget it but i feel miserable for some unknown reasons.. despite the fact that she want us to remain as close frenz or even become my mei... but i cannot take it.. most likely i will reject that... i guess i need time to cool off.. to not see her at all... it makes me better perhaps.. well.. i should look out the lap top for her.. the rest.. i guess i will have to reject her.. i think i can't cool off if we keep seeing each other... and i think it is absolutely natural... sigh... hope she will understand.. if she can't, there is nothing i can do either... i do not want to live in the shadow of my misgivings...

Well.. another issue is with training.. sigh... holiday just start and i already receive "invitation" for training..(1) monday tuesday hall training for chinese chess, (2)wednesday thursday hall training for international chess. (3) tuesday, wednesday friday for IVP chinese chess training...
plus a competition on 17th and 18th december (saturday sunday!!!!) gosh... i am so sianz.... but i guess it is good as well.. at least i wun think abt the relationship much.. and perhaps it will give me genuine excuses to not go out with Jennifer... sigh...

Just now was even worse.... she came over to my hall to use my com... i dunno why.. the more i see her the worse i feel.. it is a mixture of guilt, frustration, irritation and some unknown feeling... sigh.. what shd i do???

well i just sms her telling her how i feel... i will just look out for the lappie for her.. the rest... wait until time heals our wound... argh... i think i am losing it... *crack*... okie.. i lost it.... hmm.. *uncrack*... okie.. now it is on the verge of cracking again.. so dun push it anymore... x_X

well... today oso went to play mahjong with Kaisiong, Germaine and Kelvin... (KS cousin).. i did not realise i won so much.. i feel so bad to take the money from Germaine... sigh... mahjong play 10cent 20cent i won 50 bucks...... i guess the world is fair in some way ba.... sigh... must find someway to make it up to germaine... sigh.. first time win so much.. and i feel so bad taking money from a fren... zzzz.... kelvin oso... (ok la, at least he still owe me 6 bucks.. i dun collect all at least dun feel so bad... >.<)

First paper = first dismay, sigh

haiz, bad day today, woke up feeling quite hazy, tried to perk myself up, but was not really successful in it.. end up go take MOM paper = die.
The paper was not easy in any sense, but i could have done a lot better, a lot of the qn i can do but either i made careless mistake or more careless mistakes.. there goes my A.. haiz.. maybe even B oso dun have.. let's juz hope i could scrape a B by.. haiz.. dun wan to get C or D for it.. next monday is thermo, and i have no mood to study for it now despite the fact that i haven finish studying for it at all.. sigh...

wat to do.. maybe i shd go sleep n wake up tmr n study.. =(

hmm, lai le lai le... haha kao shi lai le...

hmm, exams coming, in fact, it is this friday.. haha
hopefully the first 3 papers will go smoothly, as the time available for each of the modules are rather tight, especially thermodynamics...
heh, not going to write along, but hope i can get the following results.. haha rather high but hope can get it...

MP2001 - A
MP2006 - A
MP2008 - B
MP2010 - B
MP2012 - A
MP2072 - B
HP803 - A
HS103 - A

haha hope i can get it ba.. but doubt so... it is justa aim for me at the time being, easier to work tat way ba.. hope anyone taking exams with me will be inspired/stress/watever to make u all study hard.. haha..
sianz, i am blabbering nonsense liaoz.. better stop.. heh.. cheers~